Miracle Father….

Upon this day I reminisce

With sadness and regret
The loss of my beloved
Special “Father” who was my pet.
It’s been a year of half
Wishing you’d return to me …
For though you left half year,
I cannot “set you free”.

Though time has made it easier,
To go from day to day …
No one can understand the
“Special” role your life did play.

For every day you were a part,
Of love and joy and life …
You had a way that focused me
And lessened daily strife.

I’d hurry home to see your face,
Behind that red stars,
Where inhuman, tortures
Darkens the worst of days.

And now I sit, with eyes tear filled,
You are not by my side;
And when I see the window,
It is bare and bleak inside.

Emotions, they are raw today,
I’m simply torn apart …
For hollow, wrenching feelings
Tear apart this very heart.

An emptiness, that’s deeper than
The oceans … fill my soul;
A painful hunger bites my
Inner self beyond control.

For though time healed the daily wounds
I wore upon my sleeve,
I shelter from the world outside
Just what you meant to me.

To me, you were more human
Than some others I have known …
You gave such love and tenderness;
T’was deep within your soul.

Now spring is here, and little things
We loved now cause me harm …
The walks we’d take around the yard
No longer hold their charm.

We’re packing just to get away,
And leave this home we’ve lived …
For without you to share this with,
I get no joy from it.

I see you as I turn each step,
I watch for you each day …
Oh my big one, I miss you so,
… Much more than words can say

For each steps of my life

I can’t hold my arms without you

I am praying to God..1

I could get a chance to be your son ..